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I am very numb when I live, and I often feel that living is boring
Posted: 08 Jul 2026, 08:12
by ygzgcjr
I am a disabled person from a rural area in northeast China. I was born with a disability caused by lack of oxygen in my brain.When I was a child, I was forced to drop out of school by violence, and I stayed at home all the time. I wanted to go out to work, and my family opposed it.My peers have gone out to work for many years, but I have been at home all my life. I want to go out to work, but my family opposes it. It's 31. I want to find a girl like me who has no living history.By some Chinese netizens online stormFor years.Now I am very numb, and I often feel that it is boring to live
I am very numb when I live, and I often feel that living is boring
Posted: 08 Jul 2026, 10:13
by General Alek
ygzgcjr wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 08:12
I am a disabled person from a rural area in northeast China. I was born with a disability caused by lack of oxygen in my brain.When I was a child, I was forced to drop out of school by violence, and I stayed at home all the time. I wanted to go out to work, and my family opposed it.My peers have gone out to work for many years, but I have been at home all my life. I want to go out to work, but my family opposes it. It's 31. I want to find a girl like me who has no living history.By some Chinese netizens online stormFor years.Now I am very numb, and I often feel that it is boring to live
You belong here
I am very numb when I live, and I often feel that living is boring
Posted: 08 Jul 2026, 11:05
by SonOfElliotRodger
ygzgcjr wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 08:12
I am a disabled person from a rural area in northeast China. I was born with a disability caused by lack of oxygen in my brain.When I was a child, I was forced to drop out of school by violence, and I stayed at home all the time. I wanted to go out to work, and my family opposed it.My peers have gone out to work for many years, but I have been at home all my life. I want to go out to work, but my family opposes it. It's 31. I want to find a girl like me who has no living history.By some Chinese netizens online stormFor years.Now I am very numb, and I often feel that it is boring to live
I am sorry you have to deal with this comrade.
But based on what you just posted I see myself in you. I literally have experienced most of what you posted. I am close in age to you too.
Though I finished schooling and I am from the U.S but of Pakistani origin. Though I am US born and raised.
Everything else you posted I can very well relate to
I am very numb when I live, and I often feel that living is boring
Posted: 08 Jul 2026, 12:10
by Tovarishcel
i think you are first brocel here from China
Welcome i hope you find home here
I am very numb when I live, and I often feel that living is boring
Posted: 08 Jul 2026, 14:14
by ygzgcjr
General Alek wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 10:13
ygzgcjr wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 08:12
I am a disabled person from a rural area in northeast China. I was born with a disability caused by lack of oxygen in my brain.When I was a child, I was forced to drop out of school by violence, and I stayed at home all the time. I wanted to go out to work, and my family opposed it.My peers have gone out to work for many years, but I have been at home all my life. I want to go out to work, but my family opposes it. It's 31. I want to find a girl like me who has no living history.By some Chinese netizens online stormFor years.Now I am very numb, and I often feel that it is boring to live
You belong here
I'm now Often feel It's no fun to live
I am very numb when I live, and I often feel that living is boring
Posted: 08 Jul 2026, 14:16
by ygzgcjr
SonOfElliotRodger wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 11:05
ygzgcjr wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 08:12
I am a disabled person from a rural area in northeast China. I was born with a disability caused by lack of oxygen in my brain.When I was a child, I was forced to drop out of school by violence, and I stayed at home all the time. I wanted to go out to work, and my family opposed it.My peers have gone out to work for many years, but I have been at home all my life. I want to go out to work, but my family opposes it. It's 31. I want to find a girl like me who has no living history.By some Chinese netizens online stormFor years.Now I am very numb, and I often feel that it is boring to live
I am sorry you have to deal with this comrade.
But based on what you just posted I see myself in you. I literally have experienced most of what you posted. I am close in age to you too.
Though I finished schooling and I am from the U.S but of Pakistani origin. Though I am US born and raised.
Everything else you posted I can very well relate to
Alas, I am too tired to live
I am very numb when I live, and I often feel that living is boring
Posted: 08 Jul 2026, 14:18
by Tovarishcel
ygzgcjr wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 14:14
General Alek wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 10:13
ygzgcjr wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 08:12
I am a disabled person from a rural area in northeast China. I was born with a disability caused by lack of oxygen in my brain.When I was a child, I was forced to drop out of school by violence, and I stayed at home all the time. I wanted to go out to work, and my family opposed it.My peers have gone out to work for many years, but I have been at home all my life. I want to go out to work, but my family opposes it. It's 31. I want to find a girl like me who has no living history.By some Chinese netizens online stormFor years.Now I am very numb, and I often feel that it is boring to live
You belong here
I'm now Often feel It's no fun to live
what are your ways to cope?
I am very numb when I live, and I often feel that living is boring
Posted: 08 Jul 2026, 14:27
by ygzgcjr
Tovarishcel wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 12:10
i think you are first brocel here from China
Welcome i hope you find home here
I have been subjected to cyber violence in China because I wanted to gain my rights and interests. A fortune-telling charlatan in China told me the year before last.In that year, if I didn't give up my rights and interests as a person, there would be a serious bloody disaster, but it didn't happen, but it also affected my mood. Last year, I started a business on China's e-commerce platform,I'm not in the mood to start a business later, and I'm full of it
I am very numb when I live, and I often feel that living is boring
Posted: 08 Jul 2026, 14:29
by ygzgcjr
Tovarishcel wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 14:18
ygzgcjr wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 14:14
I'm now Often feel It's no fun to live
what are your ways to cope?
I now use alcoholism to paralyze myself every day, and then I go crazy to my family after drinking it
I am very numb when I live, and I often feel that living is boring
Posted: 08 Jul 2026, 14:38
by Tovarishcel
ygzgcjr wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 14:27
Tovarishcel wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 12:10
i think you are first brocel here from China
Welcome i hope you find home here
I have been subjected to cyber violence in China because I wanted to gain my rights and interests. A fortune-telling charlatan in China told me the year before last.In that year, if I didn't give up my rights and interests as a person, there would be a serious bloody disaster, but it didn't happen, but it also affected my mood. Last year, I started a business on China's e-commerce platform,I'm not in the mood to start a business later, and I'm full of it
do you have experience with coding or web design/developer?
I am very numb when I live, and I often feel that living is boring
Posted: 08 Jul 2026, 14:42
by Tovarishcel
ygzgcjr wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 14:29
Tovarishcel wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 14:18
ygzgcjr wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 14:14
I'm now Often feel It's no fun to live
what are your ways to cope?
I now use alcoholism to paralyze myself every day, and then I go crazy to my family after drinking it
what is your favorite type of alcohol?
I am very numb when I live, and I often feel that living is boring
Posted: 08 Jul 2026, 22:14
by ygzgcjr
Tovarishcel wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 14:38
ygzgcjr wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 14:27
Tovarishcel wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 12:10
i think you are first brocel here from China
Welcome i hope you find home here
I have been subjected to cyber violence in China because I wanted to gain my rights and interests. A fortune-telling charlatan in China told me the year before last.In that year, if I didn't give up my rights and interests as a person, there would be a serious bloody disaster, but it didn't happen, but it also affected my mood. Last year, I started a business on China's e-commerce platform,I'm not in the mood to start a business later, and I'm full of it
do you have experience with coding or web design/developer?
Experience in website development
I am very numb when I live, and I often feel that living is boring
Posted: 08 Jul 2026, 22:15
by ygzgcjr
Tovarishcel wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 14:42
ygzgcjr wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 14:29
Tovarishcel wrote: 08 Jul 2026, 14:18
what are your ways to cope?
I now use alcoholism to paralyze myself every day, and then I go crazy to my family after drinking it
beer
what is your favorite type of alcohol?