I first got into her after seeing Juno, and after I started using the internet I decided to hunt down more information on her. This was my first experience of the devilish, beguiling nature of foids, because even though finding images, erotic nude scenes and other films with her in it was massive lifefuel, it broke my early teen heart when I found out that she had starred in lascivious sex scenes with other men. Like a siren, she led me on through fields of pleasure to the ultimate pain of being cucked live on a screen. Without her, I wouldn't have started watching porn that early! I could have had childhood innocence, instead I only had pain.
This might be why I got into dumb redpill PUA crap later, because I had an inferiority complex to the guys who I discovered she had SEX with, and wanted to be like them. PUA gurus sell you lies about how you can become more like that, and how 'alphas' are really all just following a few simple principles that anyone can do. But it was all lies, LIES, and all it led to was hundreds of EMBARRASSING REJECTIONS that haunted me for years. And, obviously, I can never have Ellen Page, she doesn't even exist any more, so what was even the point?
She reminded me of this girl named Emma Albright from a few classes below mine, I had a crush on her through high school. She was a hot brown-haired Stacylite who made me sweat as she played volleyball with such little clothing that I could almost see her bare ass. She was really dedicated to her volleyball, and I tried to pick up the sport to impress her but flunked out quickly because I had no hand-eye co-ordination and the other guys would all laugh at me. This was deeply inconvenient to me, because I think some classmates had picked up on me staring at the girls' volleyball teams as they jumped, and I was too embarrassed to watch them again. I also never had the guts to approach her. She looked similar to Ellen Page, and is the closest I have come to a dream girl, so I am still ashamed of not trying hard enough to get her attention.
I don't even enjoy thinking about her now. Thinking that we could have had the most valuable experience, teen love, together makes me cry sometimes. I hate her for making me FEEL like that. She could have saved my life by just fucking me, instead I had to see her making out with Chad and flirting with him, acting like a WHORE even at 14. She also used to crush on people in the football team, and I know that one FUCKED HER although she wasn't preppy enough to be their gf. She was such a whore, that loving her so much makes me feel like a LOSER. And it's all her fault. Foids are DEMONS.
But I'll never have her.
And even more, I'll never have Ellen Page. Because she just decided to become a guy instead, and now she's probably had sex with more girls than me too. I am MOGGED by the girl I crushed on. How could it be more over??
She ruined my mind and set me on a path towards degeneracy, and after that she became transgender, so now I can't even get more coomfuel from her new films. Women are pure torture. How dare she make me feel so dirty for lusting after her, by walking around as a disgusting male mutant named Elliot?
I have abandoned my love for her, and now all I feel is HATE. Hate for what she's done. Hate for what she made me do.
This is why foids are vile and must be PUNISHED.
