idk what to do at this point
Posted: 04 Feb 2026, 12:05
My prime lasted like 2 days then i flew to egypt for a week vacation was great but i thoud maybe i could pull some foid on everyday party and there were few girls my age but i was too fucking scared to talk to them and even if i did i would not be able to dance in front like 500 ppl. so for a week i was just siting in a dark watching ppl from age 3 to 70+ having fun on dacne floor and i was soo jelous. as a raw meat enthusiast i tried to eat only meat but the food quality was teriblle i gained 4kg in one week i am fat and bloated. the only good thing that happend was that i meet cool brown guy he was cool only bcs he incel too he did not indetify himself as one but we talked and he had lil better love life than me while being 5+cm shorter. we played chess every night and talked while other were partying next to us. i also bought some crystal that looks like meth and when you take lil chunk of it and pour boiling water and inhale it the smell is hard and refreshing.i am gonna have to work hard to come back to my prime in looks and physique bcs i get from doing 30 pull ups to 20 bcs of how fast i gained weight. and my fake friends decided to go fully rampage on me and they made some group on tt where they were mocking my looks and then just kicked me out of there i hate them i wish i could kill them i just talk with them in scholl to be seen as normal. but really i am loneliest i ever been bcs now i have literaly noone even ppl who i thoud for a moment could be my friends betrayed me after years of knowing eachother. i came to realisation after foids normies are second worst creature on earth and neurodivergent ppl like we are gift to the world bcs we are special we are not the same we don't think the same way we don't follow same patterns and the most powerful,smart or innovating ppl were neurodivergent WORLD NEEDS US but it also kills us on the other hand.