Disfiguring Foid Dolls and burying them in the garden.

[Gulag]

My hate and angry towards Foids has gotten me in trouble and under investigation. A routine check of my room without my knowledge under covered what i have being doing when i am in a dark place. I have been getting  Foid dolls and disfiguring their faces and breaking their arms and legs and then burying them in the communal garden .What does this mean I don't really know ?  I am afraid if they increase my medication I will lose all identity .
I mature age only  serious replies please. I am not an edgy teen.

[Sustacel250]

Sorry pal. Im not educated enough to give a medical advice of any type. I can only say that I always felt distrust for medical establihment. I dont get pills of any type im a conspiracy schizo retard. I am not "paranoid" but I do walk around with brain and eyes engaged and I scattered weapons all around me.

Overall can only share with you my feels about distrust of pharma or science. I will not tell you anythin related to your haelth and I have no competence about it

[CyberSchizo]

Do you want to kill women?

[Gulag]

Since this year began  I have had these intrusive thoughts while going through a stressful time and deep depression from loneliness. I have this impulse to stab Foids and it's a nasty idea . Before this I was dealing with an intense concern that I was a psychopath and had the potential to kill Foids.
After the thought things went really really really violent. I was getting these really intense and nasty fears that I was homicidal .It's been 6 months of this fear. At times it's gone but I've managed to force it back. It was made worse by these things I call "bad days" however I could think of better things to call them. On these bad days I would get convinced I wanted to do a Homicide and it would appeal to me. I have never ever said ' I want to do it' but it becomes extremely hard to tell. I have repressed these urges  for now by playing violent video games, listening to satanic music and watching  gore videos and dismembering Foid dolls and medication.

[Sustacel250]

I would recommend to read books for example houellebecq ones where incelman killed the foid or the ones from manifestocel selection of authors like lepine or ER then what youre doing currently is OK. Youre listenin to metal music and maybe also enter in the gym and do boxing and MMA if you prefer.

Also try play guitar. Play violent games is an excellent thing to do.

After a while these thoughts should go away.

[Gulag]

Christmas closing I've been having homicidal tendencies 24/7. I'm not too far deep under the line yet. I'm usually just daydreaming, night dreaming of doing it. I do not kill animals, nor think of it. It'd be a waste of my time.
The last time I visited a legit cemetery was a pet cemetery. The service came and took her the same day. It was very hard to watch the man take her to the service vehicle. I wanted to do the pick up the next day instead, but they said it's better to do it today because after 24 hours something will change with the body. My parents also said it's better to do that day. It was so hard. I touched her one last time before the man took her away. It was very tough to watch him take her away.

[Gulag]

I once tried to kill a bully of mine by stabbing him in the eyeball with a pencil when I was 11, but I didn't do it because a teacher saw me before I could get close enough. Ironically, when I got homicidal was the only time when I did not get shamed by the teachers when trying to defend myself. Sometimes I still wonder if I should have gone on with it.

[VH911]

I once tried to kill a bully of mine by stabbing him in the eyeball with a pencil when I was 11, but I didn't do it because a teacher saw me before I could get close enough. Ironically, when I got homicidal was the only time when I did not get shamed by the teachers when trying to defend myself. Sometimes I still wonder if I should have gone on with it.

??? they would have shamed you if you had gone one step further.

[Pour_Lui]

Sorry pal. Im not educated enough to give a medical advice of any type. I can only say that I always felt distrust for medical establihment. I dont get pills of any type im a conspiracy schizo retard. I am not "paranoid" but I do walk around with brain and eyes engaged and I scattered weapons all around me.

Overall can only share with you my feels about distrust of pharma or science. I will not tell you anythin related to your haelth and I have no competence about it

They really can't be trusted

[Sustacel250]

They really can't be trusted

An incel in america asked me to translate all basaglia texts I dont think there isnt anything in english. Maybe you can use AI translator.

In any case, I personally dont trust them. Learned about the scam when I was a kid and my sister died, the insurance company was saying we could have made 2 millions out of it (car accident) if I was diagnosed with something. My parents refused, and there I learned what a trash immoral scam it is.

Unfortunately, normies see psychiatry as a status allocation program, they get a ton of pussy. I could have gotten pussy too. Im not joking

In my generation, approx 10% of kids were drugged up, they were BPD, schizo, "autistic". I was already in the generation where everyone was getting at least the "autism" label. It was already super easy to get it. for instance, you dont tlak to kids you are isolated = autistic. Well, these kids around me were all using drugs, and they were dicussing their SSRI or their pharma, I was cut off "normal conversations" because I was not taking any.

Being someone who attempted suicide = high status. Incels like myself were people who had no mental problems, we were not taking drugs of any type. Normal people= incel.

Young kids created cultures like emo and goth and so on, and they got pussy and sex with these artificial labels and fake status allocations, most of these kids also received medical care for their invented problems.

Today its around 50% of normies who have these invented clinical labels. DSM worsened. My sister is a teacher and she has to study endless courses about special eduction and communication with 100+ types of handicapped normies with fake invented clinical labels. Being a school teacher sucks, youre surrounded by special prvilege normies with invented clinical labels.

And lastly, I can tell you all normies believe these clinical labels, they believe because these labels give them an artificial identity. They acquire the personality traits described by the lablels. So the normies become the description of the label. A weird phenomenon. Normies in seek of an identity will become what the psychiatrist tells them they are. And one day they will defend their clincal label as if the only piece of identity they have. Its a very vicious mechanism, surely one of the things that made me incel. What I mean is, I got none of these labels.

[Gulag]

When you sit alone in the room, do you feel that someone is  listening and your smart devices are hacked by the CCP ?Do you feel, even though you are alone, that someone is spying on you, and he is very observant of you? I suspect my home printer or toaster is the culprit .
Because of it i  am currently under siege and feel too scared to look out the window as I believe there are Chinese Snipers on the rooftops and trees ready to shoot me and CCP thermal  drones patrolling if I make a run for it and  try  to escape .What is this torment, what is this hell ?

[VH911]

When you sit alone in the room, do you feel that someone is  listening and your smart devices are hacked by the CCP ?Do you feel, even though you are alone, that someone is spying on you, and he is very observant of you? I suspect my home printer or toaster is the culprit .
Because of it i  am currently under siege and feel too scared to look out the window as I believe there are Chinese Snipers on the rooftops and trees ready to shoot me and CCP thermal  drones patrolling if I make a run for it and  try  to escape .What is this torment, what is this hell ?