Life is gay and pissing me off

[AmonGoeth]

Seriously wtf is this shit.

I already spend half my waking life wagecucking for Jews and richfags and old boomer fucks who got to enjoy society before it started declining into a degenerate, decadent, post-industrial dystopian hellscape. Just so I can survive and access healthcare to treat the chronic conditions I've had since my teens. Maybe in a few DECADES I can buy a house and buy my freedom from the rat race. Though by then the vampiric kikes will have already juiced me for all my lifeblood, leaving me with a more broken body and mind than I already have.

And all I can do in the meantime is indulge in bullshit copes and consoom tasty goyslop to temporarily distract me from the drudgery and precarity of my existence. Sure vidya and drugs and anime can be fun for a while, but at some point it loses its spark and on nights like this I'm just overcome by the futility of it all.

There's no meaning to be found in society, especially for us as incels. Cant even have sex and a cute gf to cuddle with and fuck. No family or children, not that I really care about that anyway. All the media is injected with DEI woke faggot bullshit or romance so even many solitary copes are ruined. Can't relate to society. Normies irl are indifferent at best or otherwise are egotistical psychopaths making my life miserable or simply desire the transactional services I provide them as part of the wage labor apparatus. Normies online are even worse. Reddit is full of faggots and larper dipshits or straight up assholes who are full of themselves because they are stupid and privileged enough to have good lives they can enjoy without recognizing how retarded everything is..

Ultimately if you try to rebel against or change this system in any real way, glowniggers will show up and ruin your life even more and throw you in prison or kill you then and there. Or you'll be deprived of the currency necessary to exchange for a baseline level of comfort.

Nothing I build in this world will last. I'll eventually die and everything and everyone I've ever impacted will die and rot and disappear in due time. Legacy is futile.

I wish I could believe in religion and the afterlife but it just feels like cope because there's no material evidence for any of the dozens upon dozens of different religions that all claim to be the true one.

Fucking bullshit the whole lot of it.

[Darth_aurelius]

Seriously wtf is this shit.

I already spend half my waking life wagecucking for Jews and richfags and old boomer fucks who got to enjoy society before it started declining into a degenerate, decadent, post-industrial dystopian hellscape. Just so I can survive and access healthcare to treat the chronic conditions I've had since my teens. Maybe in a few DECADES I can buy a house and buy my freedom from the rat race. Though by then the vampiric kikes will have already juiced me for all my lifeblood, leaving me with a more broken body and mind than I already have.

And all I can do in the meantime is indulge in bullshit copes and consoom tasty goyslop to temporarily distract me from the drudgery and precarity of my existence. Sure vidya and drugs and anime can be fun for a while, but at some point it loses its spark and on nights like this I'm just overcome by the futility of it all.

There's no meaning to be found in society, especially for us as incels. Cant even have sex and a cute gf to cuddle with and fuck. No family or children, not that I really care about that anyway. All the media is injected with DEI woke faggot bullshit or romance so even many solitary copes are ruined. Can't relate to society. Normies irl are indifferent at best or otherwise are egotistical psychopaths making my life miserable or simply desire the transactional services I provide them as part of the wage labor apparatus. Normies online are even worse. Reddit is full of faggots and larper dipshits or straight up assholes who are full of themselves because they are stupid and privileged enough to have good lives they can enjoy without recognizing how retarded everything is..

Ultimately if you try to rebel against or change this system in any real way, glowniggers will show up and ruin your life even more and throw you in prison or kill you then and there. Or you'll be deprived of the currency necessary to exchange for a baseline level of comfort.

Nothing I build in this world will last. I'll eventually die and everything and everyone I've ever impacted will die and rot and disappear in due time. Legacy is futile.

I wish I could believe in religion and the afterlife but it just feels like cope because there's no material evidence for any of the dozens upon dozens of different religions that all claim to be the true one.

Fucking bullshit the whole lot of it.

This is as good and eloquent a case for the nihilism of the common incel man as I think I have ever read. I know your pain all too well comrade and the sense of utter hopelessness and desperation that takes hold of you when you ponder the apparent futility of your efforts and the vacuous frivolity of our soyciety. There is no respite for us as you say and sadistic normies will only revel in our suffering.

I also am exhausting the utility function of my own copes and all of them seem to be beholden to principles of diminishing returns. I've invested more then 600 hours of gameplay in GTA 5 and just tonight found myself unable or unwilling to even return to that much beloved game since, despite its appeal, I've come to the realization that it too is a mere distraction from my suffering as well as from the indignation that I experience when reflecting upon the incomprehensible inequalities which the randomness of fate happen to bestow upon people in such a capricious manner. Even my gym cope has been compromised as I just recently injured my back and must now conform to a more sedentary lifestyle.

I have been seriously considering acquiring sufficient mastery over meditation and the contemplative arts as a means through which to achieve some internal measure of escape from this depraved and degenerate world. Mind over matter or, in the words of the great Jedi Master Qui-Gon Jinn, "your focus determines your reality". Escapism is perhaps just another cope, but I know there is much to be learned from Eastern philosophy, the mysticism of certain forms of Buddhism and the notion that the mind has the power to "transform heavens into hells and hells into heavens".

I would also say that having a vivid imagination and embracing the capacity for creative thinking is a viable mechanism to alleviate psychological and emotional suffering as incels. Just this evening I spent several hours reading about the Himalayas and beholding images of the spectacular grandeur and natural beauty of both the rugged mountains and chasms themselves as well as the majestic valleys and meadows which surround them. Conceiving of how liberating it would be to live amongst the forested hills in the highlands surrounding the Himalaya's and coexisting with enchanting creatures such as snow leopards provides me with some succor. I spend much of my time living inside of my mind and I can tell you that it does offer respite, especially since it has unlimited potential to conjure up imagery and since all our experiences are ultimately subjective in their mental valence.

[rever]

Read buddha and his dhamma
by br ambedkar
Dr. B. R. Ambedkar's Caravan
https://drambedkarbooks.com
PDF
buddha-and-his-dhamma.pdf

[Darth_aurelius]

Read buddha and his dhamma
by br ambedkar
Dr. B. R. Ambedkar's Caravan
https://drambedkarbooks.com
PDF
buddha-and-his-dhamma.pdf

Excellent suggestion comrade and I have been philosophically promiscuous my whole life and as such, have studied at least the history and some of the neuroscience of Buddhism to better understand its capacity to provide practitioners with something very close to a Zen like experience. While this movement ultimately strives to find real world, tangible solutions to the dilemmas which incel men face, it may behoove us to at least consider turning inwards for now as a means by which to ameliorate our suffering.

[rever]

Me too. After reading I feel like a beggar in spiritual poverty. The buddha asks what is great about human body . The eyes have tears, nose and ears have dirt, mouth has spit , body has urine and dung and it stinks if not maintained

[Sumzero]

Amen comrade. If it offers any solace, life may be many things but most of all it's short. Any happiness or suffering is short lived in the grand scheme of things and the embrace of death will take us all