Self hate from degenerate liberal parents and surrounding society

[Raider919]

The thing is is that when I was so small I can't remember something happened that gave me cptsd and because of the way all the psychological care is liberal I haven't been able to get access to quality Care and the guy I used to see when I was a kid. Well he was really incompetent. I feel like this whole society is made basically four degenerates. There's no way that you can make friends anymore without being into this whole alphabet thing. But the thing is is that whenever you look at all these social groups, I can't even find one that could get more than 30 people and the majority of them either have no one attending or it's just a small number of people. It's all just a bunch of socially engineered junk. That's unappealing and that's one of the reasons why Hollywood and some social media places are dying out while alternatives like this place and rumble keep growing. It's because this whole thing is just a bunch of corporate engineered junk that's backed up through infiltration within America's system of governance. I remember back when I was at the big university. I couldn't even sleep at night. I had crazy neighbors that probably weren't even working or going to school. Well they weren't. I actually saw what happened to them in the news when they got caught trafficking drugs from Canada and nothing happened. I feel like life has just been ripping me off and my parents basically think that this whole thing with the anti-alphabet woke crap is just people who are simply not smart enough to understand the complex epicness of this and I basically am. What is the enemy of woke? I am a clean-cut white dude. I come from a better background than most people. Aunt, I don't like any of the stuff. That they talk about And. I basically had to leave University because some of it was just b******* from the school itself and I wasn't the only one who left because of some of the school s*** like some of these crazy professors who probably couldn't even hold down a job working part-time at a hardware store, but another part of it is I couldn't even sleep and the landlord just wouldn't do anything about these crazy people and I called them so many times. I should have just left because the program I'm on is way better now and I'm not going to be doing it for much longer. Anyway, the thing that I'm really scared of is that I'm basically going to have no one around me when I get older. It's like every time I try to Branch out and make friends all I find is just this hollow small pay to play pay to win corporate woke garbage. I feel like this whole society is just made for these pathetic degenerates and that there's no decency anymore. My parents think they're jumping to conclusions because they don't know anything for sure. So then they start injecting. So they basically think that I'm a victim of being raped when I was a kid. Even though I have no way of knowing that because whatever caused my cptsd happened when I was so young I couldn't remember and they think that's the reason why I don't like LGBTQ. It isn't like I have problems within decency and I don't like all of this weirdo stuff in my face. After all that stuff is really private. They basically just jump to the conclusion that I got raped while I was in preschool or something like that even though I was too young to know what happened and they clearly missed whatever details they needed to see in order to get me to the care that I would need at that time. And so my family basically is just shaming on me for being 27 years old and basically an incel but I'm not going to give up so easily. The thing is is that being around all this woke junk? That's not even that popular. Anyway, I remember back before a lot of this woke stuff was taking over social scenes but like when the transfer college that I was at had their gaming club they had triple digit attendance and now it's just 11 people including staff. It's so lame. There's no way that this whole woke thing can keep going on like this. They're losing so much money and even the tariffs against China are hurting their pocketbook. But the thing is is that my parents keep making me feel bad. They just keep feeling making me feel like I'm not good enough and they jumped to conclusions. I have no idea what exactly happened when I was such a young person to give me cptsd like this

[rever]

Do not self censor yourself. Here there exists genuine freedom of speech. Speak your heart out so you can think rationally

[Tovarishcel]

Thank you for sharing with us comrade, i can understand you.
i always felt like i do not belond anywhere, i always suffer from talking to people so all my life i been stuck playing video games and learning web design and building sites... even before puberty i was building forum and gaming clan websites to make friends and belong somewhere... this is why this place became my second home as nobody else understands...

And so my family basically is just shaming on me for being 27 years old and basically an incel

that is very hard to hear comrade, i am sorry your parents are thinking of you that way.
do you have any sibilings?



Just know that you have comrades here who will always talk and listen to you

[Raider919]

Thank you for sharing with us comrade, i can understand you.
i always felt like i do not belond anywhere, i always suffer from talking to people so all my life i been stuck playing video games and learning web design and building sites... even before puberty i was building forum and gaming clan websites to make friends and belong somewhere... this is why this place became my second home as nobody else understands...

And so my family basically is just shaming on me for being 27 years old and basically an incel

that is very hard to hear comrade, i am sorry your parents are thinking of you that way.
do you have any sibilings?



Just know that you have comrades here who will always talk and listen to you

I wouldn't say i suffer from talking to people, but I seem to have a hard time trying to get friends. The thing is that so many good places are either dead or have gone woke. Hardly anyone shows up to woker events anyways. The thing is i'm insecure about my cptsd and my strangly tragic experience at UNI, but I have 2 certs i am looking to get within a year and one i am moslty there with. i could make 10% more than a bachelortard becuase of my certs and highly demanding degree. i think 4 year schools are a rip off not just because i had a teacher who probably couldn't handle being a part time car fucking cleaner who they wouldn't get rid of and he made me and 100s of other students transfer out. some nigatard reading my posts here said i flopped out. i fukcing quit against the wishes of my family because i shouldn't be paying for that load of bs and now imma on a way better track. i'm scared of being poor struggling and a loner irl. i fucking miss the old social events so bad before the wokers took it all over
i have a little sister who is thankfully doing well. i still think she is lazy af. especially compared to her bf. btw, i think when i used to stream on pisscord, someone messed with the mic settings and people were raging hearing me voice act my characters privately(i would be an actor RN if it weren't for all the wokiewood crap. i almost went into acting when i was doing my gen eds in my 1st year)

[Raider919]

Do not self censor yourself. Here there exists genuine freedom of speech. Speak your heart out so you can think rationally

Yeah. I'm just really glad i'm the only one here with cptsd. my family fucking is so prog soyer and degen that i am -cel shamed. i hate this big city working man(lhe/she/it/zhey...) fucking cult ure. my parents don't get that this family is what they want to destroy and yet the masochism goes on. imma make a thread about virtue signaling. my cigar is making me really thought provoking rn

[Sumzero]

I had comparable experience where I also dropped out of Uni because of simular reasons
mostly because I realized I had zero friends or networking connections and was taking so many mandatory leftard classes that I was virtually learning absolutley nothing.

I was essentially paying 4 years of my life and hundreds of thousnads of dollars for an extremely over valued peice of paper.

Im not even joking when I say it had got to a point where I had mandatory yoga class with a transgender teacher, feminist history, gender studies and critical race theory all lined up in one day.

Every second I spent in that place was a second I was wishing I could french kiss a 12 gauge shotgun.

I thank God every day I left that radioactive degenerate hellhole.

[Raider919]

I had comparable experience where I also dropped out of Uni because of simular reasons
mostly because I realized I had zero friends or networking connections and was taking so many mandatory leftard classes that I was virtually learning absolutley nothing.

I was essentially paying 4 years of my life and hundreds of thousnads of dollars for an extremely over valued peice of paper.

Im not even joking when I say it had got to a point where I had mandatory yoga class with a transgender teacher, feminist history, gender studies and critical race theory all lined up in one day.

Every second I spent in that place was a second I was wishing I could french kiss a 12 gauge shotgun.

I thank God every day I left that radioactive degenerate hellhole.

Heck i stayed in way too long. I was blineded by ambition. I should have left as soon as the crap piled up and transferred to U of AZ online or something. I had to attend race bait meetings and shit and I had to deal with the worst cptsd psychosis attacks. I read a comic called CURSES and the first chapter reminded me of that shit. I think that dog is a spirit trying to warn people. I pray daily now and am never kneeling to the fucking niggers who want to hurt me because I am a clean cut white dude from a better background than most.
I would accept death over touching one of those latent demons. I hate degeneracy now. I feel stronger. I do arm extensions and twisting to strenghten my arms and I keep getting stronger. I couldn't even sleep with crazy drug trafficing neet neighbors above and other shit making me loose it I should've left after year 1. I feel so fucking dumb typing this. I am gonna earn %4+ more than a bachelortard and make more. This stupid jewpid soyciety makes me hate myself for being a clean cut white dude from a better off family than most and my stupid jewified parents add to that a lot. I will never give into the prog degeneracy. I've done sucha better job of bettering myself eating better foods. I found epic excersive hacks like above and am never going soft.

[Raider919]

I had a deam where the deomsn are preparing something bad as the progs prepare to attack all out on juneteenth[idk how more people aren't picking up on this]. I keep seeing these hats with concealed metal incide and some crazy old dude putting on this crown with wires in it issuing commands into a mic. Don't fucking take any shots or put on mandatory hats. Whatever crazy shit the demons are planning is going to be revealed.